What is the Purpose of this Blog?
I am a social phobic person with BPD. Currently I am almost completely isolated. I tend to have only a couple friends at a time and when they move on I often find myself in intolerable pain. This I feel now.
This blog then I guess is an outlet; the only outlet I have right now. In a more perfect world, perhaps it will also enable me to meet new people who can accept me as I am.
About Me
Most people who know me would describe me as intelligent. I earned an AA degree in the Spring of 2012 with high honors along with an outstanding student award. In the fall of 2013 I plan on moving on to a four your school for a BA in Sociology. Although I am far more interested in Anthropology, Anthropology does not offer an online degree for social phobics like myself. Still, Sociology does offer many of the same topics to study.
I am 35 and male. Beyond the AA degree with honors, I have nothing to show for my age.
I have never been married. Just recently a relationship has ended. It had been such a long time since I felt close to someone. She taught me the word Cantankerous. Every time I think of it I think of her, her voice, and the playful way she used it.
How I Feel Right Now
I feel that I have morphed to far beyond social norms to have a lasting relationship. I'm to far disillusioned. So when I look forward in time all I see is loneliness, hopelessness. Right now I fail to see the point.
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