The Song I Sent Her

She used to asked me if she was just another woman, or if she was the only one for me. I used to tell her that I cannot imagine wanting to be with anyone else. And I meant it. Now that she is gone I feel dead inside.  From time to time I email her though, and I sent the below song to her. I may have small delusions hoping she would respond but I know she won't. 

Something inside me broke this last goodbye. I know I am too far gone to give love another chance. I won't believe again those words: "I love you." 

The first time she said them.... she said "I've been trying to figure out how to tell you something." I said "tell me sweetheart," and she responded by saying for the first time "I love you."

As she said it I could not help but think in the back of my mind if this was the apex of our relationship, and I so hoped it wasn't.

My therapist says I'm too nice. But she has not seen me when someone says goodbye to me. Nor does she know how hard I have to suppress the urges to act on emotions that threaten to rip me apart, and anyone on my path, during those painful moments involving goodbye.

Lyrics:

My love must be a kind of blind love 
I can't see anyone but you 
And dear, I wonder if you find love 
An optical illusion, too? 

Are the stars out tonight? 
I don't know if it's cloudy or bright 
'Cause I only have eyes for you, dear 
The moon may be high 
But I can't see a thing in the sky 
'Cause I only have eyes for you. 

I don't know if we're in a garden 
Or on a crowded avenue 
You are here, so am I 
Maybe millions of people go by 
But they all disappear from view 
And I only have eyes for you